Finally he' s leaving Italy.
God dammit, he' s leaving Italy.
Why Id I start with these two sentences?
Because one is the opposite of the other; with a simple and clean why.
He told me already he is leaving the Island. he told because his work is killing with a low salary and because there' s nobody loving him anymore, that he needs to be with his family, to leve Italy for a vacation, for a break.
I am happy he is: last time he did, I lived normally, without reciving his bad calls, without hearing that accusing voice of a bad father, without one of the worst men I know around.
Bad because... I don' t want him to leave.
I have the suspect, he won0 rt come back this time, that he will leave permanently.
People started even to call me "Prostitute" but not because I am one (NEVER) but because when I' m with him, I "Act like one":
When he feels to pik me up, he comes and I go with him. I become so fancy, nice and I fake to be a beloved daughter of him, even if he doesn' t love me and I hate him to death. At end I tell him I have to go with my friends and that I will buy a pizza, so he gives me some money and lets me go.
I do really need of those money... if he' ll go away, I will get lesser and even if those weren' t this much, at least I was able to buy anything more for my pets and help my mother out.
I' m saying this because I' m pissed by this fact.
here my family has no money and the thing we' ll have lesser, is bad.
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